Madeline - Senior Session.

What a great first senior portrait session! Madeline was so great to work with, and obviously, adorable. Doing this shoot really solidified in my mind that capturing people's spirit and personality is what I want to do. I want to tell stories in the best way I know how. I'm excited to continue learning how to do so more effectively, and I can't wait for much of that learning to happen overseas (leaving in two days!). I'm trying out some new blogging ideas and working on a lot of custom techniques to keep developing my personal style. I'm so excited for what's ahead!

Madeline, I hope you have the most amazing senior year!

the countdown continues.

ten days
ten days 
ten days
ten days
ten days

that's one day away from being single digits.
wow. i think your prayers as well as mine are working. i woke up this morning, and for the first time in a week, i didn't have a nervous stomach. rather, i had alot of excitement about the journey ahead, and i can't tell you how good that feels.

i can't wait to explore a new country.
to learn about other cultures.
to meet new friends.
to learn more about God.
to grow... and grow and grow. 
to be on my own for once.
to break out of my comfort zone.

don't even get me started on all the photographic opportunities that await.
wow wow wow wow.

ten days!
but, i'm still short on funds.
i've hit a bit of a plateau at $1,700 and i hope you can help me break that.
i would love to see that number under $1,000 before i leave.

do you think you could help make that happen? i really encourage you to if you haven't already.
think about it.
or, don't think about it, just hit the donate button and do what feels right.

to be honest.

two weeks until take off.

you know, i don't know what i was thinking when i figured i would just be super excited and relaxed about leaving. i'm not. i mean, i am excited of course. but i'm also experiencing whole new levels of anxiety. my stomach has been twisted into knots for the past four days, and my hypochondriac tendencies are through the roof. which was very unexpected, as i thought i was past that years ago. 

and i just keep feeling ridiculous because i know God has me on this journey for a reason, and i know He is in control and i know i am in His hands. and i am really looking forward to everything in the next seven months.
so why all these panic attacks, and why all of the fear?
it's not okay. it's exhausting. and i feel like the anxiety is taking away from the excitement i should be feeling.

i keep telling myself 'once you get there, and get settled, everything will be okay.'
and then immediatly i think 'once you're there, you're a very long distance away from mom, dad, katie, jill and coleton. shoot. can i do this? i hope they remember to let franklin in at night.. and what about...'
and the battle goes back and forth.

so if you're reading this, say a prayer with me.
i'm really praying that God just continues to lead me, and that the anxiety subsides. 
i pray that i look past the anxiety to see the big picture, because there is an amazing adventure ahead with my name all over it.

do not be afraid, for I am with you. do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.
isaiah 41:10 

photos from this week.  

the breakdown.

alot of people have been asking specific questions regarding the next seven months, so i thought i'd break it down for those who are interested.

september first
i fly out of grand rapids. bye!

september second
i arrive in herrnhut. hallo!
and i'll experience jet lag for the first time.

september fourth
most students will have arrived by now, and discipleship training school (dts) begins. 
this is the next three and a half or four months of life.
we have worship time, lecture, chores on base, art track classes, and assignments every day all week. weekends free, usually.
i will be soaking up eastern germany as much as possible.

right before christmas
this is when the dates get fuzzy, because it's very unknown to me at the moment.
but around this time, i leave for outreach.
my destination is unknown for the time being, but usually it's somewhere in africa and/or asia.
this will be for two or two and a half months. we'll be spreading the love of God, and using our art (photojournalism for me) to bring awareness to social injustice. and whatever else God has in store for us!

beginning of march
again, i'm not sure of the dates. but around this time we'll head back to herrnhut, and start debrief. also, we put together an art magazine.
wanna see last years? it's awesome. click here. 

march twenty-six
graduation.
yes, we graduate.

march twenty-seven
headed back home to the mitten.

so that's that. 

$1840 left to raise