film film film.

so apparently, i don't sleep anymore, i just stay up all hours of the night scanning film. 

macedonia. 

[we drove who knows how many kilometers, perfect opportunity for passenger seat shots]

greece. 

[this time was a huge turning point for my team and how we viewed ministry, prayer and worship]

romania.

[we started off our time here by going to the high points and praying over the city]

romania. 

[i'm absolutely in love with mountains, and could never get sick of them. there is just something about them that makes my heart feel so alive]

4am thoughts.

today is february twenty-seventh. 

i leave germany march twenty-seventh. 

one month, and this is all over. 

one month, and i have to face going home. 

one month, and i have to redefine what home feels like. 

not for too long though.

i'm not done adventuring, and there is no reason why i shouldn't keep going at this point. why stop now? why end what has been bringing me joy, adventuring with my Creator? 

whatever that means... i want it.

it's scary when situations in life bring a chapter abruptly to a close. it's scary to open to the next page that is staring at you, blank.. fresh. scary, but exciting. i don't plan on living a life dictated by fear or anxiety anymore. so if i have to look for the silver lining in the most painful of situations, i'll do it. because i can't let this throw off the growth i've made. no, that's not fair. i can't let the decisions of others muddle and mess with the identity God has given me. 

no. 

nostalgia, you are not my friend today. 

anxiety, you have no place here. 

fear, you are not welcome.

healing heart, be patient with me.

adventure, i am not done with you. 

joy, i have found you.

 and you are still mine to have.


[scanning film into the wee hours of the morning]

moldovan school.

while in Chisinau, Moldova, the photographers on our team were given the opportunity to photograph everyday life at a k-12 school. 

what i loved about it, was that everything was in russian. 

brilliant. 

what i didn't exactly love about it, was being escorted around the school by three young men who needed to learn to keep their hands to themselves. 

oh cultural differences, you can be a real kicker sometimes.

this is really the only thing i shot in digital.

can't wait to start posting film!

so far, i'm very pleased with how it's all turning out.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

school food, is school food. no matter which country you're in. 

thirteen countries. 

twenty-five lovely people. 

three white vans. 

tons of luggage. 

watching God to miracles big and small everyday. 

being blown away by the ministry opportunities. 

seeing God show up in crazy ways. 

getting to love on people that i would have never met if it wasn't for God's clear direction. 

eating hundreds of sandwhichs. 

watching my hygiene go from bad to worse. 

making breakthroughs. 

being hit with the reality of human trafficking in Nuremberg.

loving on the Romanian orphans that captured my heart.

prayer walking Greece and sharing Jesus and His love. 

spending time with elderly in Moldova. 

everything in Moldova, actually. 

like...

spending time in villages. getting to share my testimony at two churches. hanging out with the girls at Stella's Voice. photographing the most beautiful elderly women. sharing life and building a relationship with a family that took me in for lunch one Sunday. teaching photography. meeting Nastia (who i'll blog about later). 

finding God in new and unexpected ways. 

learning more of who God is...

there has never been a time in life where i have been so aware of who I am in Him, and who I want to be. 

 there is more waiting. more ministry opportunities. 

more adventures to be had...

new beginnings.

HALLO DEUTSCHLAND

as of last night, i'm back in herrnhut, and it feels so good to be home. 

i'll write alot more later and tell stories and give updates and all that jazz..

but for now, i'm just going to take this time to soak in the past few months... 

continue pushing through...

and enjoy the new adventure God is taking me on. 

i'm ready for more.

 
all our troubles, and all our tears
God our hope, He has overcome
all our failure, and all our fear
God our love, He has overcome
all our heartache, and all our pain
God our healer, He has overcome
all our burdens, and all our shame
God our freedom, He has overcome

 hillsong united. take heart. 

tiny moldova update.

what have we been doing the last few weeks in Moldova? 

many things, but for me, one of the biggest privileges has been to touch base with this ministry. 

CLICK HERE

photos soon. 

stories soon. 

back to germany, soon.
wow.  

outreach comes to a close this week. 

i can't put anything in to words right now... so much as happened. 

prayer requests: 

Moldova is in the midst of a huge snow storm. 

my beloved team of 25 is planning on heading out on Thursday, but we face alot of hindrances. border closures, temperatures, van conditions, road conditions.. etc. pray for safety as we travel back, and although we know when to take safety precautions, we've seen God protect us in many ways already and are ready to step out in faith that He'll do so on the roads again.

also.
i'm personally just dealing with a lot right now, it has been one of the most emotionally difficult weeks i've ever faced and my brain is being pulled in a thousand different directions. i really need strength (physically and emotionally), boldness, clarity, and wisdom on how to handle what is on my plate. God has been so faithful in this time, and I know that I know that I know that I know that I know.. that He is good. i know that He can redeem any situation, and... that's really all i know right now.