i leave germany march twenty-seventh.
one month, and this is all over.
one month, and i have to face going home.
one month, and i have to redefine what home feels like.
not for too long though.
i'm not done adventuring, and there is no reason why i shouldn't keep going at this point. why stop now? why end what has been bringing me joy, adventuring with my Creator?
whatever that means... i want it.
it's scary when situations in life bring a chapter abruptly to a close. it's scary to open to the next page that is staring at you, blank.. fresh. scary, but exciting. i don't plan on living a life dictated by fear or anxiety anymore. so if i have to look for the silver lining in the most painful of situations, i'll do it. because i can't let this throw off the growth i've made. no, that's not fair. i can't let the decisions of others muddle and mess with the identity God has given me.
no.
nostalgia, you are not my friend today.
anxiety, you have no place here.
fear, you are not welcome.
healing heart, be patient with me.
adventure, i am not done with you.
joy, i have found you.
and you are still mine to have.
[scanning film into the wee hours of the morning]
[scanning film into the wee hours of the morning] 
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